Monday, September 12, 2011

Brilliance of the Sun

I’m walking along the river banks with my feet in the mud.
The river is flowing downstream as I wave my hands.
The sun is shining through the trees bringing love and light to me.
The wind blows over head and the leaves are turning.

The sound of the water fills my heart and releases me.
I see the beauty of life and I sing a part of me.
The light is glistening on the surface and reflecting the wonder of my being.
The clouds are clearing and joy is rising deep within.

What does life have to offer us if we close our hearts?
How do you see the light if you’re standing in the dark?
Break free and connect with the earth and remember how to love
by watching the river flow and feeling the brilliance of the sun.

Know that we come from a source of love.
We can construct our new story and become one.
Turn to the elements of the earth and contribute to its beat.
Breathe with harmony with the world and revitalize our beings.

What does life have to offer us if we close our hearts?
How do you see the light if you’re standing in the dark?
Break away and connect with the earth and remember how to love
by watching the river flow and feeling the brilliance of the sun.

Thursday, September 8, 2011


On my travels under the city of Toronto, I noticed a couple.   They were fast asleep holding hands and snuggling.  I watched them as the subway continued on its route.   They were so adorable.  They were both wearing business attire so I assumed they were heading to work.  The energy around them radiated pure love and I felt their deep connection.  Their breath was synchronized as two Olympic swimmers gracefully danced in the water.  Their peaceful presence completely relaxed me. 
Their display of gentleness and comfort gave me hope for a loving relationship.  They were just being their authentic selves.  They were in the present moment and I witnessed it.  I was touched by their openness and how their tranquil actions affected most of us on the train.  I noticed how other people entered the train loudly, and then would see the couple.  They released smiles and they continued their conversations, quietly.
Can a display of love really create a ripe effect across the train?  Did I get to see them because I was in the right state of mind? 
I watched them for most of the ride and they started to shift their bodies and opened their eyes.  The woman was very uncomfortable with my glances.  She gave me a dirty look and all I wanted to say to both of them was “thank you.”  This huge expression of gratitude came over me and I wanted to give them something in return.  I can’t explain how strong this feeling was.  
I’m not sure what my facial expression was but they both were not impressed.  Well, the man did smile. I was worried that the woman thought I was flirting with her man.  I couldn’t speak.  My mouth was sealed shut. 
I had this urge to just jump up and say something.  We exited the train at the same station.  I didn’t want them to think I was a lunatic.  ‘What should I say? Should I say anything?  Why can’t I speak?’
I know they realized I wanted to say something. Their body language became very defensive.  Yet, they were too far ahead so I couldn't express myself clearly.  They disappeared into the crowd.
Throughout the day I was very upset that I didn’t say anything to them.  They gave me a special gift. Even as I write this now, I still feel an immense feeling of gratitude for them.  My eyes are filled with tears and my heart is filled with hope and respect for what life has to offer us.  I’m not sure how the couple might have responded but I felt I lost an amazing opportunity.  My own fear that they would judge me for telling them was crippling.
I was not able to stay in the moment.  My heart was ready to be completely honest but my will fought me.  Was this impulse coming from the heart or my ego?
I completely over think most of my actions and this one I wish I just said to them, “Thank you for your presence.   Thank you for allowing me to witness your peaceful connection.  Thank you for touching my heart on a profound level.  Thank you for the beauty of your beings.”
I may have overly romanticized this couple but the moment was absolutely real to me.  I’ll never know what their reactions would have been, but I know how they made an impression on me. 

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

The Light of a Candle Changed My Perspective on Life!

I do most of my brainstorming in my bedroom.  Yes, I have an office in my apartment but there’s nothing like lying on my bed and reading a book, writing poetry or singing in front of my mirror.   “O Sole Mio.”  Spending time in my room is very comforting and relaxing for me.
One evening I was stressed out about a few things that I was experiencing, so I tried to do connect to my emotions and ground myself.  I couldn’t relax.  I lit a candle and turned off the bright over head lighting but I couldn’t really read what I was writing.  I didn’t have my laptop yet.  I ended up turning on my lamp by my bed.  I didn’t want to blow out the candle because it gave me a romantic feeling.  Yes... I enjoy candle light by myself.  Why not?  I moved the candle to my dresser by the mirror.
I was writing poetry, stretching and playing with my toes.  (Rubbing your feet is very therapeutic and it feels - GREAT!) I couldn’t settle my mind during my favourite past time.  I felt energy coming and going through my body.  I started to notice how these thoughts about love and light came into my mind.  I wanted to get up and move but at the same time I wanted to close my eyes. 
I didn’t know I was completely distracted.  Something told me to look at my candle.  It was very bizarre.  I turned to look and there was nothing special about it.  I stared at it for a while, still nothing.  The flame was quite beautiful but really what is so special about this candle.  I went back to my toes.
Take a look at the candle!  My mind was pretty much demanding it by now.
I was sitting on my bed looking at the candle. Okay... I see the candle.  Now what?  I had a really nice candlestick holder.  I got it as a gift.  I don’t light candles very often and I really should do this more.  But, what am I missing?  I looked at the candle through my mirror.  That’s interesting how the shape seemed to change.  It was still the candle and holder but it seemed to be farther away.  Interesting...
I was still missing something.  Look at the shadow of the candle!  Past the candlestick against the wall was the shadow of the candle.  The light from my lamp help to cast a shadow.  Duh...  of course it does that.  So, I studied the shadow.  There was a shadow of the candlestick holder, a shadow of the wax and a shadow of the wick.  There was no shadow of the light.  What, the flame had no shadow casted on the wall. 
There was no shadow casted from the light from the candle.  I just stared at its image.  What does that mean?  Why do I have to notice this? 
When you add light to existing light it creates more - light.  Light itself has no shadow.  The shadow does not exist. You are light so share your light.  By sharing your light will attract more light.  Let out the inner light for others to see and shine so that it brings more peace. 
Holy moly!
I jumped from my bed and called my teenagers into my room, “LOOK!!! Guys, look!!” 
“Yah mom, that is a scientific fact.... blah, blah.” 
They didn’t really say 'blah, blah.'  I was too excited to listen because that night the light of a candle changed my perspective on life.